Why???

So have you ever wondered why??? Why me? Why this? Why now? Why, why, why??? Well I have.. I still am not perfect I know, because I have really had to learn and understand the blessings of sticking it out through hard situation/trials that come my way because they make me better and stronger and closer to Christ. I used to always wonder why me? Why this trial/ situation? ALL the time. A while back I was in the hospital as you all know, and I had a lot of problems nutritionally, that caused a lot of body functioning problems. Long story short I was in the hospital, took a long time to get better and finally my amazing Uncle Tom, helped me and also found the right medicine to make me feel better. It was hard knowing that I had to rely on the medicine to feel good but it is so much better than being sick and weak... Also I thought it was a huge bummer that I needed to take this medicine until my body could function on it's own with out it, not to mention you can't get pregnant while on the medicine.. I recently have started taking the medicine less than I have been because my body was doing well with less dosage.. Things were on track and going great and I was well on my way to getting everything solved knowing what foods to eat to equal out my levels in my body.. Well 4 days ago, my sickness came back.. My first thought.. WOW why does the crappy things always happen to me.. But then I quickly said a prayer and asked for comfort. God knows what he is doing, he has a plan and he knows that this trial is not to big for me to handle. It may be 5 more years, maybe more, maybe less until I can have children because of this set back, but at least my body can get healthy again, and I can really learn to love life in what ever direction it leads me. 5 years is nothing! I have an amazing family and friends who I know love me, and most of all My sweet husband Brady! In comparison I so would choose my family, friends, and Brady over a dumb sickness! I now say to myself every day, seriously Michelle.. this isn't that bad! I can get through this! Well I am on my medicine fully again and we will see how it goes! I feel so much better than this past week and I am also so glad I caught it in time so i didn't have to go back to the hospital! Yeah no medical bills!!!

Brady got me this to help with my sickness, because I can juice ALL the veggies and fruit into one giant drink and get them all down in one sitting!!! It seriously is the most AMAZING juicer in the entire world! My drink consists of... beats, celery, tomato, cucumber, carrots, apples, oranges, and pretty much any fruit or veggie that gives TONS of vitamins. It has been so neat over the past year learning all the foods that are good for you and what they all consist of nutritionally. I am now a healthier person over all. See good things come from trials! It's if we choose to find the good in the bad!

Well sorry to blab so long, but I am seriously doing better and I know the lord has a plan for me! I also wanted to say thank you to my AMAZING cousin Allison. She sent all of us family an email about how reading the scriptures 30 minutes a day can honestly change your life. And it is a promise that if you read with the right purpose 30 minutes every day blessing will come your way that you would never even imagined. Brady and I have honestly seen a difference. I know I have especially because I really have been so happy during this hard time. So thank you Allison for that story you shared! I love you!

Love Michelle

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